there is nothing... alone and death of leenstar... this is heartbreak hell and i am burning in it

the last love

once upon a time there was a boy and girl who meet under the twinkle of the stars lights indoors, their eyes crossed like collision... forever connecting spiritually... this is the story of the last love....

twin soul roses

twin soul of mine I met you in life. where my veins turned to roots to sprout out my love for you in a form of a rose. star shaped rose blooming and slick red velvet. our souls matched and bloomed oh so beautifully.


wilting away slowly, but together past loving until death and into the afterlife. twin soul of mine in death I stay by your side. I absorb the poision out of the water so you may radient with your beauty much longer. I let myself get infected for you for I give you all my water and air and die first so you can breathe and live longer than I.

"When you photograph people in colour you photograph their clothes. But when you photograph people in B&W, you photograph their souls!" ~Ted Grant

some inspiring love quotes

“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”
Fenderx Morrie Schwartz quotes


“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”~ Judy Garland quotes

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.”
Mother Teresa

“Trying to make someone fall in love with you is about as pointless as trying to control who you fall in love with.”

“Every man is afraid of something. That's how you know he's in love with you; when he is afraid of losing you.”

“Love is not blind; it simply enables one to see things others fail to see.”

“It is better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than to lose that someone you love with your useless pride.”

“True Love burns the brightest, But the brightest flames leave the deepest scars.”

I Would Do Anything For Love

endlessly

<3

still jobless

I am still jobless but I have not given up on looking for a job. I have started looking at odd jobs, one time jobs, and even retail again. But I am too moody for retail since I am impatience with idiotic customers. I can do it but its harboring a lot of anger. Well anyway I am trying and I always do good at interviews and get told I have a great portfolio and give great interviews but it seems someone is always taking the job away from me! Although I did notice one place I interviewed at 2 weeks ago has reposted needing people again... WTF?!?!!?!

I am a hard worker and very organized and do well when working. But more than ever now I need to work and save and pay off cards. But mostly save to move, the time has come to get ready to move and I am ready. Moving on in life and trying not to let life keep pushing me down!

I am tried of the random crap and walls since the divorce, seriously got divorced lost my insurance and got laid off in the same month! Hard as fuck! Then to go about a year without work on unemployment, which was strange for me sine I am a workaholic. But then luck came and i got a job it was ok, went to crappy and to disrespectful boss, it was a little bit here and there and then for 3 days straight he was beyond rude and insulting. 3 days!!! WTH, i worked hard in the back doing all the computer work that they didnt want to do plus designs, web maintenance, data entry, inventory, and print tags. I had gotten health insurance there since I needed it so the boss knew i needed the job. Well the disrespect I got was not worth it and talking it over with my parents I was able to quit.

So since May i have been jobless and well I need a job! or win the lottery, I dont really need much to survive, well it is in a way since I would love to pay off my current debt including school loans and most my debt is school loans. Killer stuff really and it will follow you where ever you go... worse than the paparazzi! But yea I need a job! or several small jobs!

Sweden

Sweden's trip is always a blast and so different from home. But I love that to mix with different cultures listen to the swedish singings and watch the human race interact with each other some more. Also being able to drink the tap water with out getting sick and lots of walking around. Such beauty in the details of the older buildings and this time I got to go into a swedish house it was very cute and different layouts from here. I could tell they were just made to live in but not form and function design wise, but still cute :) But still its these differences that make me happy but make me feel more at home since its a clash and yet I can see it tying well together like a blank canvas and a color paintbrush. Something about it is so magical and worth it. Plus lots of fresh air to breathe in is always so nice! And now for some pics more can be seen here: FB Fan page also here JPG:Leen, and over these next two days I should add soem prints for sale here on my redbubble page

songs

to match my aching heart...

just a survey why not

If I were a fruit I'd be...
strawberry

If I were a color I'd be...
teal

If I were an animal I'd be...
cat

If I were a book I'd be...
a depressing one

If I were a clothing item I'd be...
the shirt mike wears

If I were a jewel I'd be...
moonstone

If I were an object I'd be...
marker

If I were a car I'd be...
broken down car rusting away

If I were an element I'd be...
water

If I were a tree I'd be...
ancient and old

If I were a drink I'd be...
hurricane

If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be...
cream leen

If I were a person I'd be...
a better person

If I were a planet I'd be...
pluto

If I were an insect I'd be...
beetle

If I were a public transport I'd be...
train

If I were a song I'd be...
"dreams in fiction" - orgy

If I were a movie I'd be...
what dreams may come

If I were a season I'd be...
winter

If I were a flower I'd be...
crushed one

If I were a career I'd be...
art

If I were a cartoon I'd be...
anime

If I were a place I'd be...
the ocean

If I were a gift I'd be...
the love that never ends for you

If I were a memory I'd be...
someone's love of their life

If I were a city I'd be...
ruins of rome

If I were a sense I'd be...
feel

If I were a game I'd be...
final fantasy

If I were a time of the day I'd be...
2am

If I were a body part I'd be...
heart

If I were a smell I'd be...
cookies baking

If I were a subject I'd be...
art

If I were a bird I'd be...
crow

If I were a month I'd be...
october

If I were a perfume I'd be...
versace "bright crystals"

If I were a gummy candy I'd be...
sour worms

If I were a toy I'd be...
the one you never let go of

If I were a textile I'd be...
silk

If I were a shape I'd be...
star

If I were an answer I'd be...
wrong

If I were a word I'd be...
endless

If I were an invention I'd be...
the lightbulb to light your way

If I were a phone call I'd be...
one for happiness

Enter a universe in which reality and imagination blurs. Where emotions are the words and words are invisible. Feelings are the key to the different worlds locked inside of my universe. A universe that grasps all your senses and overwhelms.
will you stay? or will you leave?

update!

finally had time to add the banners and wallpapers! maybe tomorrow I update photography/art/GD
http://www.leenstar.com/