Why is it that friendships are easy to lose as time passes and there are few who stay. But an online friend who lives in another state or country will outlast a friend that lives 3miles away? Or an acquaintance will check on you more often than your "real" friends when you have fallen, or birthday?
Where have they all gone? The ones who grew up with me, the ones that stood by me, have dwindled to almost none. The few that stayed don't even live in the same city. The ones that were there are now faded but stayed with each other, excluded me as if I were erased or never was there in the first place.
I was social once but that was slaughtered by those close to me, still trying to but not trusting so easily. Erased by others when I thought everything was good... getting married caused more of this to speed up. I announced that I was planning on moving out of the country, they came back. I announced I was laid off and they disappeared again.
Be my friend or bow out, but don't sting me along for when you just need me, I want to be able to run to you too when I am down. I want to have that trust, and not the empty words of "You can always come to me when something is wrong".
I am tired of this game and observing it, it had to be mentioned.
