How can someone tell me they love me but at the same time majority of the actions done contradict it?

Why is it that work all weekend and the one i want to be with makes plans to be with others for 3 days straight....

How come i keep getting hurt
How come i am not strong enough to kick him out. I can let go...

I dont get why i must keep getting hurt....

purge

is that time again I need to purge people out of my life. It seems like it since I notice more and more how much more people are distant. Yes I am very busy this time and this year more than others but I must pay the bills but I try and make time for others who just blow me off, what is the point? again really it seems to always be happening and nothing is changing in this motion of flakes. How do I escape the cycle of this.... good question since I thought I had done it.... now it seems that was a lie. nothing I can do it seems but to purge people out again and some must be re-purged. even if loosing some might be sad it may just need to happen....