mommy leen

I love when I can play mommy to my nieces/nephews/cousin and any babies, it fills that void that no one else can fill especially after my miscarriage. My son would almost be 2 years... a year 8 months old to be exact on the 16 of this month.

anyway I have this one neice who seems to show me the most innocent love, she hears me and wants me to carry her and she is only 3 months old and her bond to me is so sweet and strong. He holds me tight, smiles, laughs and makes noises as if she were talking to me, she feels my love for her and I love her unconditionally. She also loves to sleep in my arms, vomit on me at least twice and always goes to the bathroom when I hold her it never fails, its kinda funny too. Strange though but she most be super comfy with me to let it all go :) or I make her feel better.

Its also a marvel to look at her and see how tiny she was one arm to hold her when she was born, and now its 2 arms and she is getting bigger, and soon she will be as big as my nephew and then niece and eventually my size... probably taller than me. The littleness always amazes me even with my cats the size of my hand when I got them and now they are big and long kitties.

either way i show so much love to them, and wont stop loving them and all the babies that cross my path. What is also neat is that most little kids either really love me and need my attention, and then there are the ones that shy away at me but look at me with big eye in marvel like i am some "princess" as I have been told by a little girl. I cant forget one of my classmates had an artbooklet I made and he said his daughter carried everywhere and said I was a princess.

Sweet innocent eyes of a child, where does it get lost? I dont see what they see of me, but I do know I have the most patience for them, and I make sure to hug them if they let me or I make them art, a simple drawing or clay model lights up their day... maybe I should of been an elementary art teacher. But teaching is not my thing.

babies/kids/animals rock <3