travel

To travel is a great experience but the cost is not always so friendly. Its extremely costly in the summer, but what can I do, I want to go back to Stockholm to tour the city again, I want to move there, and see some friends as well.

I miss them, as well walking the streets admiring the beauty of the architecture and counting how many McD's there are within a few blocks of each other. This amuses me to see how many there are its like an epidemic of these fast food chains. But I do love the feeling of walking around and trying to familiarize and memorize the area so its clear in my mind and memories. Watching the people walk, the way they dress, listening to the sounds of their beautiful language and listening to the traffic of their cars, sounds so different from here, and yet more homely.

My heart says Stockholm is home, Helsinki is a good place to visit and it calms me to be there, but it was never 100% home feeling just 50% my escape from home. Once I was in the streets of Stockholm it was 100%. How can I deny my heart what it is seeking? I wont give up, but there are things/issues still here holding me down and it feels unfair... I know have patience, everything happens for a reason. If its mine to happen it will happen just have to wait. But like a child on its birthday awaiting to open the gifts, I am there at that anxiousness and excitement.

I want to run now and not walk, but I may trip and fall, either way I will get back again and keep trying. Fate is on my side this time, it has helped me twice already to reach someone, I think its just the beginning.