Time Shift or Shifted Fates?

Every once in a while now since the blog challenges I have unearth the net to find topics. At least to consider writing about or at least sit in my mind and engage into thoughts.
This one hit me on many levels, it was a turning point, a shift in time to where I am now, or shifted me from my fate.

"That thing that happened in high school that pretty much changed your life forever"

Now it is cliche to say that everyone changes in highschool since it is a transitional time, but it is typically for the better, but what about those unfortunately becomes a setback?

It was a setback for sure, and although I am over it it has cause the issue of trust, lack of trust, not wanting to trust. What is the point of trust somedays I wonder?

Trust
noun: firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
"relations have to be built on trust"
"good relationships are built on trust"

Good relationships, what if you have all those relationships wiped out in an instant? Where does that lead one towards? Good question I still wonder that from time to time, but it is less scrutinized overall.

I was dating this guy that not many wanted to date but I did and I put him into my circle of friends who it seems they were building stronger relationships with each other, and probably leaving me out of group. But it wasn't apparent till I broke off that relationship. They ' know or ask me why either. But I did because he pulled me by my hair and tried to accuse me of something ludicrous. I was angry and decided the next day it was over. So I ended my relationship wit him. But 2 of my closest friends, people who I had known since Elementary and jr. high, and who I figured I would stay friends with for the rest of my life. They turned the tables on me, they comforted the ex too much and turned friendships against me to side with the ex, not a few years of friendship I m talking about 8 years of friendships. But it wasn't instant, they waited till I was approached by another guy and dated month later. Falseness in the works. I was basically friendless for a year and half the last years of high school. Those that were acquaintances came to comfort me, I didn't expect it, and made me realize to never ever overlook people's kindness.

But I put an iron wall in between me and everyone.

Then I find out while in college those "friends" were after the ex and even slept with him. What was the point of the betrayal only to date/fuck/benefit with him? Shouldn't they had just been glad it was over and moved on? I could of cared less if they dated him after it was over, but no they had to make an issue. Strange logic.

So the wall is up and everytime I do let it down I get hurt even more, makes no sense. And since that incident I attack fakes and bad people as I am the flame and they are the parasites after it.

It is not all bad I have found/meet a handful which I can call friends and talk to frequently.

high school is strange, love and envy is worse.