10 months and 7 days

I woke up this morning, only realize its already monday and there is 10 months and 7 days till my big move to Malmo, Sweden. I really am jumping to the other side of the pond... in search of new life. Away from family & friends, away from everything familiar, the culture i grew up in. Some would think that would make me home sick, but i am glad to get away from it. I am not a family oriented person although i was brought up in a very family oriented environment family first, hang out with family. I always pushed myself away it was not for me, and I didn't care to be part of it really. I hold friendships much higher since it seems I can connect with outsiders with ease than what is there in front of me.

So as i get out of bed to grab the laptop and check my messages I think about how it will be nice to wake up somewhere with an unfamiliar ceiling and surrounding myself with a new language, different creaking sounds, outside noises from the traffic outside and the only sense of familiarity is my 5 cats and the items that traveled with me. I know most people are all the same anywhere you go in the world, but this hermit will be excited to go out, go to work and explore life once more and maybe socialize. But even if I don't much more than now, something tells me the pace of life will be allot less stressful than it is now.

Something about europe has always caught my eye since I was a little girl, it lead to dreaming about living out somewhere in europe in a cottage house with green grass and the ocean near by, to sooth my soul any day. But I always envisioned it alone and never with someone... that should of been a sign before I got married. But it wasn't and i did the whole traditional lifestyle get married try to have a kid, and invest in a house. Had the miscarriage, getting divorced... its not for me or for him, but we tried and we do love each other enough to let go of each other so we can both pursue our own dreams. Its nice to know we can be friends still. But even more comforting someone else can see I want to run after my dreams.

So after putting aside my dream for some many years I am glad to be going about plan even if i am overly planning out ahead and getting as much done now so when the time comes I can take my dive into the ocean and sail away to new opportunities. 10 months and 7 days.... here i come

fyi this is my public journal, my private one is on livejournal.