1 years ago

I went with Kaylin to Stockholm, Sweden. We both had interviews to go to and explore.
and 2 days later the love of my life and I's first kiss of love.

1 years.

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Alice in Wonderland

OMG I LOVED ALICE!!!!! It had sooo many parts from the book!!!! Omg its eye candy love <3

revamping

my website and its taking awhile since i have more content to add and my graphic design has been broken apart into clients section since I have more work from others, especially violent divine. I think I like this design best and the colors are what my hair used to be... i miss those days but this job wont allow that or my lip ring. I miss the flexibility of my older job. But what can I do? I have debt to pay and survive. I hope the next job is better and not so limiting on designs.

anyways the preview:

Florence and the Machine - Cosmic Love

happy moments

are always when I talk to him, he makes me laugh, smile be happy and feel so loved. Some of the sweetest words to feel like I belong were said today and it made my heart melt and happier, all day not sad just happy girly moments. Even though i miss him terribly... wish I could go see him now. Its time our paths cross again but forever.

love him forever

other than that i miss traveling like crazy, and my job is getting more hectic with the sales down the boss is picking fights and it is annoying he lashes out at the employees for the sales being down. I want a job in sweden. I applied for one that is design and traveling sounds like a dream I want it!!

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strange

strange days and strange weather to match the murky sad and sick moods of the leen. Sometimes I am convinced the weather is insync with me...

strange...

simply

stressed....

my mini swedish magazine

I made a mini magazine on 3 cities in Sweden from my trips-visit with my photography
http://issuu.com/leenstaraileen/docs/roamingsweden

i am unhappy with 85% of my life....

yes that is 85% but this is good in my life, whats not right you wont know.


10%
Will to move to Sweden, my love, my cats, my creativity/art/photography, love to learn about cultural, the differences in people, learning, music, movies, shopping, the ocean, cold weather, certain foods, traveling, night drives, late night coffee/meal


the other 5% is
friends, family, good memories, family traditions.

I am lucky for/to:
have a place to live with my parents since the divorce and lay off. The fact that my parents love me and help me when needed and even when I dont ask for it. I have a few friends that care for me so much as i care for them which is rare. I still have a car, i do have a job that I can pay the bills and have a bit extra to save even if it is less than i used to make. I also have enough to be able to care for my 5 cats. I have my vision and its still doing good after the lasik.

hmm

its been 9 days since i wrote in here... but not much has been going on... work work work. School started monday and its Intermediate Illustration. This coming Monday my swedish class starts so i look forward to that!

well yesterday I did sleep for 12 hours straight which was strange but I guess I am that tired, and yet here I am up semi late but not really... yea.

I did get to make some design mocks to show my creativity to a job in stockholm.

I do have a book design coming up to do for a client I took pictures of her house.

I have a painting to start/finish for mom

and hopefully coming closer to an end to some new designs.

need to redo my site soonish.

yea thats about it.

its stuck in my head

But its beautiful when I think of him and I <3