revamping

my website and its taking awhile since i have more content to add and my graphic design has been broken apart into clients section since I have more work from others, especially violent divine. I think I like this design best and the colors are what my hair used to be... i miss those days but this job wont allow that or my lip ring. I miss the flexibility of my older job. But what can I do? I have debt to pay and survive. I hope the next job is better and not so limiting on designs.

anyways the preview:

Florence and the Machine - Cosmic Love

happy moments

are always when I talk to him, he makes me laugh, smile be happy and feel so loved. Some of the sweetest words to feel like I belong were said today and it made my heart melt and happier, all day not sad just happy girly moments. Even though i miss him terribly... wish I could go see him now. Its time our paths cross again but forever.

love him forever

other than that i miss traveling like crazy, and my job is getting more hectic with the sales down the boss is picking fights and it is annoying he lashes out at the employees for the sales being down. I want a job in sweden. I applied for one that is design and traveling sounds like a dream I want it!!

Time to Release The Hounds! Release Party!

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strange

strange days and strange weather to match the murky sad and sick moods of the leen. Sometimes I am convinced the weather is insync with me...

strange...

simply

stressed....

my mini swedish magazine

I made a mini magazine on 3 cities in Sweden from my trips-visit with my photography
http://issuu.com/leenstaraileen/docs/roamingsweden

i am unhappy with 85% of my life....

yes that is 85% but this is good in my life, whats not right you wont know.


10%
Will to move to Sweden, my love, my cats, my creativity/art/photography, love to learn about cultural, the differences in people, learning, music, movies, shopping, the ocean, cold weather, certain foods, traveling, night drives, late night coffee/meal


the other 5% is
friends, family, good memories, family traditions.

I am lucky for/to:
have a place to live with my parents since the divorce and lay off. The fact that my parents love me and help me when needed and even when I dont ask for it. I have a few friends that care for me so much as i care for them which is rare. I still have a car, i do have a job that I can pay the bills and have a bit extra to save even if it is less than i used to make. I also have enough to be able to care for my 5 cats. I have my vision and its still doing good after the lasik.

hmm

its been 9 days since i wrote in here... but not much has been going on... work work work. School started monday and its Intermediate Illustration. This coming Monday my swedish class starts so i look forward to that!

well yesterday I did sleep for 12 hours straight which was strange but I guess I am that tired, and yet here I am up semi late but not really... yea.

I did get to make some design mocks to show my creativity to a job in stockholm.

I do have a book design coming up to do for a client I took pictures of her house.

I have a painting to start/finish for mom

and hopefully coming closer to an end to some new designs.

need to redo my site soonish.

yea thats about it.

its stuck in my head

But its beautiful when I think of him and I <3

You can follow some of my photography on



other sites I am on
art:
http://leenstar.deviantart.com/

Nonsense:
http://twitter.com/leenstaraileen

my site (updates soon)
http://www.leenstar.com

rewind 2009

2009 the year of paused and love.
I got to travel more even though I was jobless and struggling to get back to work.

I went to trash fest 2 where love was made and a new door opened. I saw some of my travel friends and loved the week I was in Helsinki, I made it to Stockholm as well. I was lucky to have kaylin travel with me to and back a crazy 29 hours! Coming back to the festival and Lahti and all its glorious love memories and one sad betrayal as well. but it was the root to our love as well.

a few months pass and I am lucky enough to spend 4th of july + 5 other days in Stockholm drinking, being a tourist and the "i love you's", beautiful memories I will forever cherish of getting lost, love, drinking, walking, museums... and more. I struggle to get back to him

also go to tour with VD in finland helping pack the car and sell merch but stingy finn's didnt by anything really just the traveling ones did! Documented it all with photographs and video and loved it all!

came back to miss him even more. Some nails went in in between then and Nov.

Also in Nov I get a job which I am still unsure of really. But I have a job, he got a job and we are making money and its the end of the year.

2010 you have just begun... but i hope you bring me to Stockholm with a job and the love will be there since him and I rock together better than glue on paper!

mirror painting 3

I always love to work with acrylic and mirrors something simple and i guess modern although I dont like the use of the word modern. Just random idea of the universe reflects on everything that happens....

the first was a box so it really was a sculpture, the second is demon leen, and now this, I need more mirrors or broken ones..