are always when I talk to him, he makes me laugh, smile be happy and feel so loved. Some of the sweetest words to feel like I belong were said today and it made my heart melt and happier, all day not sad just happy girly moments. Even though i miss him terribly... wish I could go see him now. Its time our paths cross again but forever.
love him forever
other than that i miss traveling like crazy, and my job is getting more hectic with the sales down the boss is picking fights and it is annoying he lashes out at the employees for the sales being down. I want a job in sweden. I applied for one that is design and traveling sounds like a dream I want it!!
Monday, February 22, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
Time to Release The Hounds! Release Party!
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Saturday, February 6, 2010
strange
strange days and strange weather to match the murky sad and sick moods of the leen. Sometimes I am convinced the weather is insync with me...
strange...
strange...
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
my mini swedish magazine
I made a mini magazine on 3 cities in Sweden from my trips-visit with my photography
http://issuu.com/leenstaraileen/docs/roamingsweden
http://issuu.com/leenstaraileen/docs/roamingsweden
Friday, January 15, 2010
i am unhappy with 85% of my life....
yes that is 85% but this is good in my life, whats not right you wont know.
10%
Will to move to Sweden, my love, my cats, my creativity/art/photography, love to learn about cultural, the differences in people, learning, music, movies, shopping, the ocean, cold weather, certain foods, traveling, night drives, late night coffee/meal
the other 5% is
friends, family, good memories, family traditions.
I am lucky for/to:
have a place to live with my parents since the divorce and lay off. The fact that my parents love me and help me when needed and even when I dont ask for it. I have a few friends that care for me so much as i care for them which is rare. I still have a car, i do have a job that I can pay the bills and have a bit extra to save even if it is less than i used to make. I also have enough to be able to care for my 5 cats. I have my vision and its still doing good after the lasik.
10%
Will to move to Sweden, my love, my cats, my creativity/art/photography, love to learn about cultural, the differences in people, learning, music, movies, shopping, the ocean, cold weather, certain foods, traveling, night drives, late night coffee/meal
the other 5% is
friends, family, good memories, family traditions.
I am lucky for/to:
have a place to live with my parents since the divorce and lay off. The fact that my parents love me and help me when needed and even when I dont ask for it. I have a few friends that care for me so much as i care for them which is rare. I still have a car, i do have a job that I can pay the bills and have a bit extra to save even if it is less than i used to make. I also have enough to be able to care for my 5 cats. I have my vision and its still doing good after the lasik.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
hmm
its been 9 days since i wrote in here... but not much has been going on... work work work. School started monday and its Intermediate Illustration. This coming Monday my swedish class starts so i look forward to that!
well yesterday I did sleep for 12 hours straight which was strange but I guess I am that tired, and yet here I am up semi late but not really... yea.
I did get to make some design mocks to show my creativity to a job in stockholm.
I do have a book design coming up to do for a client I took pictures of her house.
I have a painting to start/finish for mom
and hopefully coming closer to an end to some new designs.
need to redo my site soonish.
yea thats about it.
well yesterday I did sleep for 12 hours straight which was strange but I guess I am that tired, and yet here I am up semi late but not really... yea.
I did get to make some design mocks to show my creativity to a job in stockholm.
I do have a book design coming up to do for a client I took pictures of her house.
I have a painting to start/finish for mom
and hopefully coming closer to an end to some new designs.
need to redo my site soonish.
yea thats about it.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
rewind 2009
2009 the year of paused and love.
I got to travel more even though I was jobless and struggling to get back to work.
I went to trash fest 2 where love was made and a new door opened. I saw some of my travel friends and loved the week I was in Helsinki, I made it to Stockholm as well. I was lucky to have kaylin travel with me to and back a crazy 29 hours! Coming back to the festival and Lahti and all its glorious love memories and one sad betrayal as well. but it was the root to our love as well.
a few months pass and I am lucky enough to spend 4th of july + 5 other days in Stockholm drinking, being a tourist and the "i love you's", beautiful memories I will forever cherish of getting lost, love, drinking, walking, museums... and more. I struggle to get back to him
also go to tour with VD in finland helping pack the car and sell merch but stingy finn's didnt by anything really just the traveling ones did! Documented it all with photographs and video and loved it all!
came back to miss him even more. Some nails went in in between then and Nov.
Also in Nov I get a job which I am still unsure of really. But I have a job, he got a job and we are making money and its the end of the year.
2010 you have just begun... but i hope you bring me to Stockholm with a job and the love will be there since him and I rock together better than glue on paper!
I got to travel more even though I was jobless and struggling to get back to work.
I went to trash fest 2 where love was made and a new door opened. I saw some of my travel friends and loved the week I was in Helsinki, I made it to Stockholm as well. I was lucky to have kaylin travel with me to and back a crazy 29 hours! Coming back to the festival and Lahti and all its glorious love memories and one sad betrayal as well. but it was the root to our love as well.
a few months pass and I am lucky enough to spend 4th of july + 5 other days in Stockholm drinking, being a tourist and the "i love you's", beautiful memories I will forever cherish of getting lost, love, drinking, walking, museums... and more. I struggle to get back to him
also go to tour with VD in finland helping pack the car and sell merch but stingy finn's didnt by anything really just the traveling ones did! Documented it all with photographs and video and loved it all!
came back to miss him even more. Some nails went in in between then and Nov.
Also in Nov I get a job which I am still unsure of really. But I have a job, he got a job and we are making money and its the end of the year.
2010 you have just begun... but i hope you bring me to Stockholm with a job and the love will be there since him and I rock together better than glue on paper!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
mirror painting 3
I always love to work with acrylic and mirrors something simple and i guess modern although I dont like the use of the word modern. Just random idea of the universe reflects on everything that happens....
the first was a box so it really was a sculpture, the second is demon leen, and now this, I need more mirrors or broken ones..
Friday, December 25, 2009
semi good holiday
Work was crazy and I was already not feeling so well, but when I got my check there was a $100 extra. I felt so appreciated and happy and my day was lifted, they closed the store early so I got to come home and napped. I didnt feel so well most of the night and traditions but I tried to keep a straight face. I got some gifts and nice ones when I wasn't expecting any.
Christmas day spent it mostly lying down or sitting working on pics, but that wore me out. I am finally feeling a bit better but still tired. I hope tomorrow I am better at work. I just have 2 more months till I can get health insurance so I keep tellign myself just hold on a bit more.
Christmas day spent it mostly lying down or sitting working on pics, but that wore me out. I am finally feeling a bit better but still tired. I hope tomorrow I am better at work. I just have 2 more months till I can get health insurance so I keep tellign myself just hold on a bit more.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Happy Holidays!
have a good day while I am at work :) omg oh well better night and off friday so yay!
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